UNBALANCED

I had my first cataract surgery on March 31--one week ago today. The distance vision has been restored--it is awesome. And the colors are sooo bright, white, real! But, my mid-level vision is whacky, my old perscription is way off, and I had to purchase readers across the counter which work so-so. I feel so unbalanced. I can drive and I can see the television, every tiny word on the screen, and there are really white houses on the mountains across the valley, but my world is rocked.

May 5 the left eye will be operated on. It is a little more scary as that is, what my surgeon calls, the damaged eye. It has an elognigated eyeball and the stigmatism/pronounced nearsightedness make it not a sure thing. However, I have placed this in God's hands and am sure this will be successful too.

In the meantime, even with "readers", I have found it very difficult to read and work on the computer. I have been replaying writing workshop tapes by Natalie Goldberg, Julia Cameron and Anne Lamott. Each of them, in their own way, tell writers they should do some kind of writing each day. Anne just says write. Julia Cameron calls her three pages minimum "Morning Papers" and Natalie Goldberg tells us to just put pen/pencil to paper and keep it moving, writing "Writing Practice."

In spite of all the fuzzy visions before me, I will attempt to do my morning pages or writing practice each day. I led my writing glass today and, the group that has always been there for me (and I them), proved how truly caring they are. I voiced my concern about the struggle to prepare constructive lessons for them until the completion of my surgeries and the healing process which will lead to the right corrective lenses. Their answer was simple,"We don't care about the lessons. We're just glad you're here with us." Wow.