UNBALANCED
I had my first cataract surgery on March 31--one week ago today. The distance vision has been restored--it is awesome. And the colors are sooo bright, white, real! But, my mid-level vision is whacky, my old perscription is way off, and I had to purchase readers across the counter which work so-so. I feel so unbalanced. I can drive and I can see the television, every tiny word on the screen, and there are really white houses on the mountains across the valley, but my world is rocked.
May 5 the left eye will be operated on. It is a little more scary as that is, what my surgeon calls, the damaged eye. It has an elognigated eyeball and the stigmatism/pronounced nearsightedness make it not a sure thing. However, I have placed this in God's hands and am sure this will be successful too.
In the meantime, even with "readers", I have found it very difficult to read and work on the computer. I have been replaying writing workshop tapes by Natalie Goldberg, Julia Cameron and Anne Lamott. Each of them, in their own way, tell writers they should do some kind of writing each day. Anne just says write. Julia Cameron calls her three pages minimum "Morning Papers" and Natalie Goldberg tells us to just put pen/pencil to paper and keep it moving, writing "Writing Practice."
In spite of all the fuzzy visions before me, I will attempt to do my morning pages or writing practice each day. I led my writing glass today and, the group that has always been there for me (and I them), proved how truly caring they are. I voiced my concern about the struggle to prepare constructive lessons for them until the completion of my surgeries and the healing process which will lead to the right corrective lenses. Their answer was simple,"We don't care about the lessons. We're just glad you're here with us." Wow.
May 5 the left eye will be operated on. It is a little more scary as that is, what my surgeon calls, the damaged eye. It has an elognigated eyeball and the stigmatism/pronounced nearsightedness make it not a sure thing. However, I have placed this in God's hands and am sure this will be successful too.
In the meantime, even with "readers", I have found it very difficult to read and work on the computer. I have been replaying writing workshop tapes by Natalie Goldberg, Julia Cameron and Anne Lamott. Each of them, in their own way, tell writers they should do some kind of writing each day. Anne just says write. Julia Cameron calls her three pages minimum "Morning Papers" and Natalie Goldberg tells us to just put pen/pencil to paper and keep it moving, writing "Writing Practice."
In spite of all the fuzzy visions before me, I will attempt to do my morning pages or writing practice each day. I led my writing glass today and, the group that has always been there for me (and I them), proved how truly caring they are. I voiced my concern about the struggle to prepare constructive lessons for them until the completion of my surgeries and the healing process which will lead to the right corrective lenses. Their answer was simple,"We don't care about the lessons. We're just glad you're here with us." Wow.
posted by Barb | 8:38 PM
3 Comments:
I've really got to get back to doing my Morning Pages. I got so much encouragement from doing them and some terrific ideas for solving plot and character problems too. It morphed into plain journaling, which was very helpful dealing with daily frustrations, but didn't do much for my Writing. And as my time became more limited, I found I wasn't even doing that anymore.
Diana, I don't think your Morning Pages were a waste of time no matter what you wrote. Isn't that what Julia Cameron wanted us all to learn--that just picking up the pen and writing something each day is the purpose of them?
If you can't use them to write out your frustrations, your angst, your fears, where can you?
You're right! And in a strange (or not so strange!) way, spending time doing my morning pages actually seemed to ADD to my time, rather than take away from it. I suspect that's because it helped me use my time more efficiently. Getting my angst onto paper got it out of my mind (relieved the pressure?) and the plotting ideas, etc. gave me a boost in my "official" writing time.
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